memories, events

Time for Spring

I have king sized cabin fever! I am sick and tired of the cold days. I am tired of the funny winter hats. My hands are always cold. I miss sitting out on the porch enjoying the sunshine.

I received a battery-operated hand warmer last Christmas. The name on it is Zippo. I am sure many vets remember the name Zippo. In my military days everyone had a Zippo lighter. I guess the sales of lighters these days are not that high, so they had to diversify. The hand warmer is nice though. Rechargeable and you can plug into your smartphone and use it in case your smartphone battery dies.

Denver Metro had a record-breaking snowfall recently and that did not help at all. I did not go out of the home for three days and that does not help cabin fever one bit.

The older I become the more I cannot tolerate cold winter months. If I was twenty years younger, I may consider moving to a warmer winter month state. However, I am sure family would convince us to not even consider it. I guess all that leaves is to moan and groan about the cold months.

I need a break!

Daily writing prompt
Do you need a break? From what?

February 7, 2023

Not much to remember on February 7th. In 1940 the movie Pinocchio premiered. General MacArthur returned to Manila in 1945. President Kennedy blockaded Cuba in 1962. Not much has happened throughout history on February 7th. However, February 7, 2023, is a day I will never forget.

This is the day I dodged death. I was standing in front of deaths door and Doctor Death was holding the door open for me to enter. Here I was laying on the operating table with a massive blood clot between my lungs. The doctors said they had better results if the patient stayed awake, so I went with that option. About 30 minutes after the start, I was really feeling horrible. I was having trouble getting a breath and there was the time I thought, “this is it, life is over”. I must have passed out, but a while later I woke up and slowly started to feel better. I survived and spent the next three days in ICU.

Many times, while lying flat on my back, in ICU I thought many times, “Why was I given a second chance?” It has been a year now and I am still searching for the reason I dodged death on February 7, 2023. Until the reason reveals itself, I will just do what I do best, and this is just be me and enjoy these bonus days and hopefully bonus years.

Decision

I have been retired over sixteen years and all my time is leisure time. After sixty years of working earning a living, raising and providing for a family I am entitled to leisure time. Since I retired every day is Saturday! I wake up and think what will today bring just like I did when working but just one day of the week then. Now it is every day.

With that I have enjoyed doing many different things at different times. Before I retired, I had passion for model trains and this passion went through its course. Since I have retired and moved into our new home the workshop, I have in my basement. I spent a lot of time. However, that interest has decreased lately. Of course, I am aging like everyone else, and this is affecting what I can do and not do.

Lately I have been spending a lot of time writing and reminiscing about things that happened to me. I have become active in WordPress again. I had this account since 2010 but became active in it since August of last year. I have dabbled in podcasts and videos. Maybe someday I can say they are pretty good.

In conclusion, it will be close to a year since I experienced a life-threatening blood clot. I was standing in front of Death’s door and Doctor Death was holding the door open. I surprised everyone and beat the odds. What I enjoy the most since that event is living!          https://tomt2.com/2023/08/10/my-blood-clot/

Bloganuary writing prompt
What do you enjoy doing most in your leisure time?

No Dream Job for Me

I am beyond a dream job. I have been retired for over seventeen years. Now I dream of staying healthy and hoping my financial situation out lasts me.

A long time ago I had a dream job in mind. When I entered junior high school, now they call middle school, I was put in what they called an accelerated class. This was composed of kids that was in the top ranking of the proficiency tests they gave us. At that time, I loved science class, especially chemistry. My friend and I stayed after school and helped the science teacher around the lab and classroom. My dream job then was chemistry or engineering. Towards the end of ninth grade, they gave us a standardized test that was supposed to inform us what kind of career to pursue. The results came back, and chemistry or engineering was not on my list of careers. This shattered me, my dream was destroyed! I continued to high school, and I barely graduated from high school.

For the next forty-five years I had a job. Some jobs were good high paying jobs and others were just to survive jobs. 1987 to 1991 were the most difficult financial times. I was laid off from my high paying job and unemployment was at seven and a half percent. It took over four years to find a good job. None of the jobs were my dream job. However, I am retired and satisfied with my current situation.

I do have a new dream though, that is to have many subscribers and followers that read and enjoy my ramblings. https://tomt2.com/about-2tts/

Bloganuary writing prompt
What’s your dream job?

COMMENTS ON CHRISTMAS AND THE HOLIDAYS 

Christmas is near. This time of year brings out parties, family gatherings, gifts and memories of Christmas’s past. Since I am in my seasoned years, I have many Christmas and holiday memories.  

In my young years I remembered Santa Claus. Going to the department store to visit Santa. He scared the hell out of me. Why do I have to tell him what I wanted for Christmas. I remember one time I wouldn’t drink my milk and Mom had to call Santa Claus and tell him I was being bad. Yes, I did drink my milk. I did not want to take the chance of not having a present under the tree on Christmas day. We did not have a fireplace, or a chimney and I was at the age where I had hundreds of questions. “Mom how will Santa be able to get in?” She assured me that they would leave the front door unlocked so that he could get in to drop off the gifts. I never got a lump of coal from Santa.  

Christmas music is songs that stick with you all your life. We would go to downtown Denver and the stores would have Christmas displays in their front windows. Christmas music was played out on the front sidewalk. The Denver Dry Goods had the largest display of all. They always had a large display of electric trains and I have had a love of train displays throughout my life because of these displays. It was a very happy and joyous time of the year. 

One can’t forget Midnight Mass. You got to stay up until midnight, but it was tough to stay awake since your biological clock says it is time to sleep around 9:30 or 10:00 o’clock.  But you didn’t have to take the time to go to church Christmas morning. We would always have Christmas dinner. We never had a large crowd because the home we lived in was small.  Or we would go over to my dad’s aunts for Christmas dinner. 

In my young years the Christmas tree was always a real tree. That was before all these artificial trees. We would go to a tree lot and pick one out and come home and start decorating. That was fun and exciting. In those days if a light burned out in the string of lights, they all went out and you had to find which one went out. The tinsel took a long time to put on, one strand at a time. After the holidays the tree was very dry. The needles were falling off and it was a definite fire hazard. You waited till after New Years before the tree was taken down. Then we got an artificial tree. One of those silver aluminum trees. Couldn’t put lights on it. We got a color wheel that shined on the tree. It was pretty.  

One year when I was in junior high, (middle school these days), the home room had a gift exchange. We all drew names, and you got a gift for the name you drew. Whoever drew my name did not bring a gift for me. I was hurt and devastated. I was the only one that did not receive a gift. I will never know who it was, but that really hurt.  

During those days there was Christmas and New Year’s Day holidays I never did understand the reason for New Years Day. I still feel the only reason for that holiday is to have another excuse to drink too much. In our small world there were Christians and no religion families. There were no Jewish, Muslim or black families in our area. Now there is Hanukkah, Ramadan, Kwanza and others I am sure I missed others. This is fine with me. Holidays are not just reserved for Christian denominations.   

I hope everyone has a nice and joyful holiday. 

FIFTIES MEMORIES VIDEO

Link to video

I totally forgot that I have a You Tube account since 2011. For some reason I thought about it for some reason and guess what! It is still active, and this video is from this site. I don’t have a clue where it is from. I know it is too good to be my handiwork. I know there are others my age and am sharing it.

Also, here is a link to my long lost You Tube account.

MEMORIES OF FAITH

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My first church 

The first church in my life was a Catholic church since my mother was a born and raised Catholic. I guess I can say my father did not have a practicing religion. He was raised a Baptist, but I would say he did not go to church services no more than ten times that I can remember. He never interfered with my mother raising my brother and I into the Catholic religion.  

First a little about the history of this church. The name was St. Rose of Lima Catholic Church. It was established in 1924 in an old Presbyterian church in west or southwest Denver. The original was a small grey stucco building, I would say about the size of a small country school building. I distinctly remember the two tall evergreen trees on both sides of the entrance to the church. 

When I was very young, I remember the parish priest, Father Grohman. He was a funny man and full of life. He was probably around 60 when I was young, 

In 1949 father Wogan became the parish priest. Strange man, I could never get close to him. It could have been the normal fear of authority at my young age, and he liked to show his authority. Father Wogan expanded the church. The old gray stucco building was torn down and a new church was built across the alley in 1949. I was seven years old at the time. This church was in the basement because in the next six years a school was built around the structure. In 1955 the school was dedicated and is still open. In 1963 a new church was built just east of the original church, and it is still being used even after the church was severely damaged in the flood of 1965.  

I received my first communion there and confirmation. It is hard to compare the religion what I was raised into the religion of today. In fact, I could say there is no comparison. For example, fear was a big factor. There was time when I compared God to the big accountant. He sat there with his big ledger pad and kept track of every time you sinned and acted human. It was tough getting into heaven those days. Today the game has changed and now I feel like I may have a chance. 

I am sure my past exposure has affected my faith and me. Just as my present exposure affects my faith. The faith I have is based on events happening throughout my life. My life has been a learning experience and the older I become the stronger my faith becomes. 

An influence of my faith 

My grandmother or the mother of my mother was an influence in my faith journey. Grandma was born in Germany and migrated to America when she was seven years old. I am not sure when she learned to read and write English. I do know that she had very little formal education because the migration to America was during her young years when she should have been learning the basics and then she had to go to work to help feed the family. Grandma married and had fourteen children. About half of them died in birth or at a very young age. Her husband died at a young age because of Asthma, and she was left with many children to feed and support. She had to take in laundry and scrub floors so the family could survive. They did not have community support programs during that time. As her children became older, they had to quit school and start work at a young age to help support the family. It sounded like it was a very difficult time. 

 Grandma lived with our family. I think she moved in with us when my parents bought their house. I remember her living with us until she passed away when I was sixteen years old. Her life was hard and a struggle.  

With that said, she was an influence in my faith journey because I never heard her complain about her struggles in life. She was a very religious person. I don’t know how many times a day she would pray. She went to church as often as she could and she always would say, “have faith, God will take care of you.” 

I remember on her deathbed when we would come to visit her, she would say, “you don’t have to come see me anymore. These two angels are here waiting to take me away and she would point in the direction of the corner of the room. To this day I believe she actually saw two angels waiting to take her away. 

Song of my faith 

Here I am searching my brain for a song that is instrumental in my faith. It is in there somewhere, but I am having a difficult time finding it. In fact, I am having a difficult time thinking of any song this is significant in my life. One of the first songs that came to thought of was “Ave Maria”. Why that song came to me first I cannot explain. It just came to mind that many Christmas Carols about Christ is instrumental to my faith. I do believe that Christ is the son of God and Christmas Carols do celebrate Christ’s coming into the world. “Silent Night”, “Away in the Manager”, and others give me a strange warm feeling when I hear them. However, that is just a period in the year. After the Christmas season these songs are not played until the beginning of the next Christmas season.  

I am looking for that one song that affects me throughout the entire year.  

There is one song that I truly love. This may sound strange, but that song is the theme song from “How the west was won”. When the words “the Promised Land” are sung it emphasizes or re-enforces my faith that there is a Promised Land beyond life on this earth. I know it is not a traditional religious song. I may not have a traditional song stored in my brain. Many times, I strongly feel that my faith is not from traditional organized religious practices but from subtle events and ideas that I have experienced. 

Icon of my faith 

Here I am trying to think about an icon of my faith. This is a tough subject for me because I see an icon as an inanimate object with no life. Whereas my faith is alive and vibrant. I can look at a cross and it brings the thought of suffering Christ did for mankind. However, there are other icons or stories that bring the same thoughts to mind. The cross is not the only center of point for these thoughts. 

Being from a Catholic raised environment statues were and still are big in the Catholic faith. I feel that the statues were attempts to remember an individual. They were before photography. I have never looked at a statue as an icon. 

What I am trying to say is that my faith is not dependent on some icon. My faith has come from lessons and teachings of the Christian religion throughout my life and events that have happened between me and the unknown.  

Religion of youth versus religion of adulthood 

What I am today is so much different than what I was in earlier periods of my life. For example, in my young years when I was indoctrinated into faith and religion. Everything was black and white. Or you might say it was either good or bad. You had to worry about the bad things or the sinful aspects of life. Much of religion was memorization, many aspects were just bad, don’t question it, just abide by it. 

As I became older in my journey of life, I attempted to abide by all these rules and regulations. It was tough and many times I questioned my worthiness. I was a sinner and walked around with a large case of guilt. Now that I look back at these misdeeds they now are not as bad as they were at the time. 

As life progressed and other events in my life took place my outlook on life and religion began to change. Religion and faith started to be an important part of everyday life. Whereas in younger years it was a hamper to being happy and feeling good about myself. 

So here I am now. I will never be an evangelist. Religion and faith are a difficult subject to discuss because so much of my faith is an internal gift and what I feel may not work for another. If I can’t relay my faith in words, what do I do? I resort to actions and displaying my faith with what I do. How I live and how I show love to others that cross into my journey of life.  

What is worship? 

Thinking about it I am sure everyone has a different concept and idea on this thought. I am sure no one will ever come up with a one definition that fits all. Even my thoughts on this subject tonight may change at a later time.  

I am feeling that worship is a conversation with God. I have heard that worship is just praising God. Sorry, this does not work for me. I have been in many one-sided conversations, and they can be very boring and useless. To have a good conversation both parties need to be involved and share thoughts and feelings. Many will say that God does not talk to you. It may be that you expect to receive the response like you communicate to God. Is God communicating to you in subtle ways that is not in the form of traditional communication? This could be one of the mysteries of worship. Worship can be a seven-day event, not just an event reserved for church service time. It just dawned on me that I might just link worship with prayer. 

Conclusion  

In conclusion, the above subjects were writing prompts in a writing group from 2009. I brushed them off and refreshed them. It has been fourteen years since they were written, and a lot has happened in my faith.  

First, we have become more active in the Lutheran branch of Christianity it amazed me how close or similar the two are. When I was young, I was told than protestants were wrong and going down the wrong path. I came to the realization that they are God loving humans and try to do the best they can to lead a good life. We have attended many denominations during this period have realized that they are all Christians.  

Finally, I experienced a near death experience last February. I thought I breathed my last breath and was prepared to meet the maker. I must have passed out but somehow the doctors revived me, and I started to feel better. How long I was out I will never know. This tale can be read at “My Blood Clot”. All tests and lab work show that there was no long-term damage and the chances of surviving more years are good. I am now at ease of death, and I am confident there is more after death on this earth. I am convinced that God loves us unconditionally and Christ died for our sins. The hard part to accept is that God loves the bad guys unconditionally and Christ died for their sins too.  

HOA BOARD MEMBER TALES

HOA board member tales Audio file for listening instead of reading.

There are many articles about homeowner Assocation’s actions that have reached the news media attention. Most are not very complimentary about HOA’s. Many involve boards abusing their power and overstepping their authority. We have lived in our community for seven years and the community has a HOA board with three volunteer members. Every year there is a homeowner meeting in the month of November. The purpose of the meeting is to elect new a new board member to replace the member whose term has expired. Also, next year’s budget is presented, and the past year’s events are covered.  

We moved in 2016 and for the next three years we experienced the difficulty the HOA has getting homeowners to step up and volunteer to become a board member. It is supposed to be an election but most years only one homeowner steps up and is appointed to the board by default. The complex was started in 1998 and is primarily filled by retired seniors or ones close to retirement. The favorite excuse is, “I have already served on the board, and I have fulfilled my duty.”  The 2020 meeting was the same and I finally volunteered because it appeared that no one was going to step up. I have over twenty years of management experience and I knew I could do the job. By default, I became a board member.     

My three-year term began in January 2021 as vice president since that was the position where the term was ending. In the three years I have copies of over 1,420 emails involving board business. I could write a very boring book covering everything that took place, but I am just going to cover some highlights.  

The first thing that happens is the property management company that the HOA has contracted announced on January twelfth we will be getting a new manager. Over the last years we have had many managers. The board has four board meetings throughout the year.  

The first board meeting of the year is January thirteenth, and we meet the new manager. I will call her manager A. There is an agenda for the meetings and additional items are discussed. I suggested that a “no outlet” sign be put in the entrance exit since the complex is an oval street and there is only one entrance exit. Since I suggested it I got the job of calling the city and requesting it. A month later the sign was installed by the city.  

A month later Manager A sends an email and asks how things are going. I reply, “everything appears to be ok with me. 

There is an observation that I have had for a few years, and that is, it appears that the manager position changes quite often after a short period of time. Any thoughts on this?” 

The owner of the property management company responds. “Thank you for the reply and I certainly understand your concerns.  Human resources are our biggest challenge with property management and unfortunately your community has been the most affected. For historical sake, Ben was promoted to a dedicated manager position, which was a great promotion for him.  Bev, Brenda and Jordan were all terminated for not meeting our company or client standards.  During the reassignment period we have always tried to support the board and transition manager with myself or Jackie.  I know this causes much undo stress on the board and I truly appreciated the presidents help and working with me.  Manager A is a long-standing employee and a great manager which is why we assigned her to your account.  I think her longevity will prove to be much help for all of us.” 

The following nine months there was nothing significant happening. Financial approvals, repairs, maintenance, and homeowner issues were about all that happened. Then in October we will get a new manager. Apparently, Manager A was in an auto accident and unable to continue. We now have manager B.  

During that time, I put out feelers to find a new board member since I knew from past years that finding a homeowner to volunteer is a challenge. In October a homeowner steps up as the vice president only and I must become the president. At the November seventeenth homeowner meeting he is appointed.  

So, I am the president for the year 2022. The 2022 budget has been approved with a 10% increase in insurance and on December 30st I am informed that our insurance will go up 45%! That destroys the 2022 budget, and I am told by the agent if we do not renew the forty-four homes will be without insurance come January first. What choice did I have? I had to approve and sign the insurance increase. What a way to start the presidency. To make things worse, Manager B was out of the office for the week between Christmas and New Years. 

2022 was quite a year. As the year progressed it was discovered that Manager B is not up to doing the job. It is taking longer to have normal tasks completed. Homeowners are complaining that Manager B is not returning phone calls. Manager B is sending emails to me that should be sent to other communities. The treasurer of the board said it was frustrating working with Manager B because of the slow or no response.  

I do not tell a company that they need to fire a person. That is a decision they need to make. All I do is give them reasons to make a change. I invite the president of the property management company to the homeowner yearly meeting so he can have some insight to what we are dealing with.  

Because of the large increase in insurance, we are required to dig into our reserve fund to pay current bills. Our2023 budget was increased to offset the 2022 shortfall. We did find a homeowner that was willing to replace the treasurer whose term ended in 2022 though.  

Here it is 2023, the final year of my three-year term. On January eleven I heard that Manager B has been removed from the property manager company. No surprise at all about that information. A new manager will start January sixteen. She will be called Manager C. The first board meeting for the year is the same day and Manager C is to be met that day. In the following weeks we are finding out about many of the issues Manager B failed to deal with.  

On February seven I experienced a life-threatening blood clot between my lungs and was out of service for the entire month of February and the vice president took over in my absence.  

The board is attempting to clean up the problems Manager B left. Now around the first of April I am noticing that the responses from Manager C are taking longer than is acceptable. Waiting ten days for a response is not acceptable. Spring gutter cleaning is not scheduled, and the fall gutter cleaning was never accomplished. Just getting excuses for not having a contract for the annual home painting project. We receive notice that Manager C has resigned for personal reasons. Manager C was a big disappointment.  

On July fifth we received the announcement that we have a new manager. She will be called Manager D. The next board meeting is July eighteen, and we meet manager D. We have another board meeting October tenth, and everything appeared to be fine. She was responsive and appeared to be on top of current issues. I even commended her for doing a good job. So, on October thirtieth we are informed that she resigned and returned to her former employer. This came as a total surprise for me, and I am dumbfounded.  

At the annual homeowners meeting on November seventh Manager E was introduced to the homeowners. The owner of the property management company was at the meeting and said Manager E was an old-time friend and will be with us for a long time. Only time will tell. My term was over when a replacement was installed to fill the third position on the board. 

In conclusion, having so many different managers during our time in the community is the most discouraging part of the HOA. I have lost track of how many managers have passed through the doors in the last seven years. Something is always lost when a personnel change is made. All in all, it was an interesting experience and I do not regret volunteering. There were awkward and uncomfortable moments. There is always a small percentage of people who forget that board members are unpaid volunteer positions, and that small percentage can be rude and crude. If I was younger, I would not be afraid to volunteer again.  

MILITARY MEMORIES AND VETERANS DAY

MILITARY MEMORIES AND VETERANS DAY audio file for listening instead of reading.

It will be Veterans Day in a couple of days, Saturday November eleventh. A day to dedicate veterans, all veterans from all wars, peace time veterans, living or dead. In 1918, on the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month, an armistice, or temporary cessation of hostilities. It was called Armistice Day and became a federal holiday in 1938. After World War II it became known as Veterans Day. When I was young, I remember the little red paper poppies many wore to commemorate the day. You do not see them very often these days.  

There are many traditions that take place for Veterans Day. One is the official wreath-laying ceremony held each Veterans Day at the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier in Arlington National Cemetery. Many cities have parades on this day for veterans. Denver has a parade Saturday at 9:00 am at City Park. Veterans Day can be confused with Memorial Day celebrated in May. That day is in memory of military members who lost their lives in the service of their country. Veterans Day is for all veterans, living and dead.  

Since I am a Viet Nam Era veteran, I have military memories. I was drafted in 1964. Therefore, my service experience was a duty not of my choice. At that time around forty percent of the military were draftees. The day I was inducted there were seven others. We took a night train trip to St. Louis Missouri and then a bus to Fort Leonard Missouri for basic training. That train trip was a milk, mail run and it stopped at every small town to pick up the mail and milk. I didn’t get much sleep that night. During the eight weeks of eye-opening basic training, we were told that we would all be going to Viet Nam.   

After basic training I received orders for Fort Huachuca Arizona for advanced individual training. The training is a twenty-six-week course in drone electronic control systems. Yes, this was one of the first generations of drones you hear so much about these days. I immediately thought the training would take eight months to finish and my tour is only twenty-four months. What a waste of time and money. The training was interesting and challenging though and I do not regret the opportunity. When the training is near being completed, we are told that we are going to South Korea or Germany. I lucked out and received orders for 2nd Armored Cavalry, Nurenburg Germany.  

I receive my orders to report to Fort Dix New Jersey, for travel to Germany via a military troop ship. I arrive in Fort Dix about ten days before thanksgiving. Since it takes a couple of weeks to accumulate enough soldiers for the troop ship, I spend Thanksgiving on KP duty at Fort Dix New Jersey. Finally, around the sixth of December we were transported to a port and boarded the troop ship. It took around ten days to get to Bremerhaven Germany, depending on the weather. The north Atlantic is not a friendly voyage in December, what an experience! Finally, we dock at Bremerhaven Germany. Deboard the ship and get on a train for Nurenburg. The train trip was an overnight trip, and we did have a sleeper car so we could get some sleep. Arriving at Nurenburg someone from 2nd ACR was waiting for us and took us to Merrill Barracks. Assigned to a temporary location since 2nd ACR had three squadrons on the Czechoslovakia border and headquarters in Nurenburg. Christmas was near and I was not assigned to a permanent company yet and guess what? I got to spend Christmas on KP duties at Merrill Barracks. KP on Thanksgiving and now KP at Merrill Barracks. I am really starting to get homesick now.  

I am finally assigned to Aviation Company located in Nurenburg. My stay in Nurenburg was very interesting. Merrill Barracks was a Kaserne that Hitlers SS troops were stationed in. Nearby was Zepplin field. If you have ever watch and WWII films Zepplin field was an area where the Nazis had large rallies and you can easily find videos of Hitler ranting and raving at Zepplin Field. The most depressing thing about Nurenburg was the weather. Many days it was cloudy and overcast. Being from Denver metro where maybe 250 days a year is sunshiny it was hard to get used to. In July of 1965 the army makes the decision to disband the drone system I was trained in. I was then classified as excess and received orders for F Battery 26th Artillery in Darmstadt Germany. 

Took a train from Nurenburg to Darmstadt which is about thirty miles south of Frankfurt and started the second chapter of memories in Germany. As usual the unit I was assigned to did not have a clue that I was assigned to them. Therefore, they had to find a spot for me. They assigned me to the supply room. So much for those twenty-six weeks of training in electronics. F Battery was an aviation company, and they maintained a supply of replacement items that may be needed in case of a failure. The parts depot was located in Frankfurt, and we had to make parts run twice a week. That gave us a lot of time away from the airfield. This assignment lasted until March 1966 and that is when my two-year term is over. Received orders to Fort Hamilton New York. 

Took another train trip to Bremerhaven Germany. This was a day trip and only took about four hours. When we got to Bremerhaven, we had a shakedown. The army wanted to make sure we had no contraband in our duffle bags. After that we went on the ship and stayed on the ship overnight and departed Bremerhaven the following morning. the Atlantic in March is not that much friendlier than the December Atlantic.  

About ten days later we arrived at New York harbor. Stayed on the ship until the next morning. Then we are transported to Fort Hamilton for separation procedures. At that time all monetary disbursements were in cash. Before they let us go, they warned us that the bad guys know you are carrying cash, and they want your money. Try not to travel alone and get out of the city as soon as possible. Welcome to 1966 New York City! 

In conclusion, I basically enjoyed army service. If it wasn’t for the potential of Viet Nam, I may have re-enlisted. After getting home I find out all the ones drafted with me ended up in Viet Nam. Why I was fortunate enough to go to Germany instead of Viet Nam is something I still wonder about today. Military service was good for me. You meet all kinds of people from all kinds of places, and I have concluded that people are basically good, and evil is a learned process. Knowing that the person next to you may die protecting you builds a bond between you and that is hard to explain that bond. My feelings about Veterans Day changed after I served.         

Colorado Tom and the Pillar of Deceit

Audio file for listening instead of reading.

Everyone has a little Indiana Jones in them. Here is my tale.

It is January 1965, and I am in the army. I have just settled in with my three new roommates at Merrell Barracks in Nuremberg Germany.   

Bob, a short stocky young man in his twenties was from Chicago. Angelo, a tall slim person was from upper New York. George, the youngest, was tall and big and his family ties were in Pasadena California. We were all new replacements for troops rotating out of the 2nd Armored Cavalry Regiment whose mission was to protect the German border from the Soviet threat located just across the border in Communist Czechoslovakia. Headquarters Company and Aviation Company were stationed in Nuremberg and three combat battalions were on the border of Germany and Czechoslovakia. The four of us were assigned to the Aviation Company. 

 Nuremberg Germany has a lot of Nazi and Hitler history. All of the spots I mention were in the area that was called, “Nazi party rally grounds.” Merrel Barracks is one of those places. This was one of the barracks for Hitler’s SS troops. Some of Hitler’s worse lived here. The front of the building was pock marked with bullet fire from the Second World War. The four of us are now live in a room that may have been the room of men without conscience. If only the walls could talk. The living quarters were in the front of the compound and the equipment area for tanks, trucks, and trailers was in the back. There was a ten-foot high barbed wire fence surrounding the entire compound. Security was high because tactical nuclear weapons were stored down in the basement.  

Another place was Soldiers Field. It may be called something else by other people. However, military personnel called it Soldiers Field. On occasion, the army would have parades there. It looks very similar to the football field that the Chicago Bears play at. If you ever saw old Hitler news clips, this is the place that many of these rallies were held. Near Soldiers Field was Congress Hall. It looks very similar to Rome’s Coliseum. Not too far away was the airfield. I don’t remember a name for it. We just called it the airfield. This is the airfield for the 2nd Armored Cavalry Regiment. There were pillars built around the airfield and according to some the pillars were built so that the airfield could be covered with a gigantic roof. However, Hitler’s vision never came to pass.  

In the first couple of months, you learn about your new surroundings. This was a new experience for my other three roommates and me. All of us were drafted into the army and now we were five thousand miles away from home in a foreign country. You learn many things. You find out where the mess hall and the px is. You learn about the routine in your new unit. In addition to all of the normal activities and directions you also start to hear about all the rumors and stories about the interesting history behind the buildings and location you are currently living in. We hear the story that the Nazis had all these building and locations connected with underground tunnels and that there were large caverns underground with all kinds of military equipment, such as, planes, tanks, and other military items. When the allies came near it is rumored that the Nazis flooded the caverns with all the equipment in them. In one of our orientation meetings, we are informed that some areas could still be dangerous and off limits because they may be booby-trapped. Exploring is not allowed. Are the rumors true? 

Now that I have set the stage, I will start with the adventure. The weather in Nuremberg was not very exciting while I was there. It was mostly overcast, cloudy and drizzled a lot. When you did have a nice day, it was a day to remember. One of these days happened on a Sunday in August. On a day like that you want to go out and enjoy the sunshine. Also, it was a Sunday, and we had the day off. After lunch the four of us decided to go to the park. Around Soldier’s Field, Congress Hall and the airfield there were park like areas where the German population would come and bring their families and take leisurely strolls in the afternoon. Also, on one corner there was a large outside beer garden that was very popular. Anyway, we were roaming around in the park area and ended up in the airfield area. The pillars I mentioned before were in the park area next to the airfield. We knew there were steps in the inside of the pillars where you could go up inside the pillars. There were three floors in the pillars and the view from the top floor was a nice view of the surrounding area. We decided to go up in the pillars and enjoy the view on a sunny day since every other time it was cloudy or overcast.  

We went inside the pillar and walked up the stairs to the top floor. The floor was dusty and dirty from an accumulation of dust from many years. It was a nice view from the top floor. When the sky was clear you could see much farther than in an overcast sky. George and Bob started to mess around. George was larger than Bob and he liked to use his definite advantage. George started to push Bob and Bob was resisting. However, George was pushing Bob and his feet were sliding on the floor. This sliding pushed away the accumulation of dust on the floor. I happened to look down at the floor where the dust was pushed aside. I said, what is this? You could see where there was a straight separation on the floor. We started scraping away some more of the dust accumulation and it appeared to be some kind of lid or door. After a few minutes of moving the dust, we uncovered a definite square in the floor about three feet across. You could see that this section was definitely different from the other part of the floor. It was positioned in one of the corners of the pillars. What did we find? Is this a way to get into the tunnels and caverns below? We had to find to a way to try to raise that lid or door.  There was an accumulation of scrap metal on the outside perimeter of the pillar. We all rushed down, looking for some kind of tool to pry that lid or door. Angelo found a piece of flat iron about two feet long maybe a quarter on an inch thick. I found a couple of pieces that looked like re-bar. Rushing up to the top floor we looked for a place to insert the flat iron between the floor and lid. It was a precision fit. We could not find any place to accept the piece of quarter inch flat iron. We will have to break some of the rock floor away from the separation so the flat iron could be inserted. The re-bar was used like a small spear, breaking the rock away. After about forty-five minutes of intense chipping away the flat iron was finally able to fit into the opening between the floor and the lid. We did it! Slowly the lid was raised. You could feel a draft of cool moist air coming out of the opening. We placed the re-bar on opposite corners raising the lid about an inch above the floor, just enough to slide our fingers underneath and raised the lid and propped it against the outside wall. The lid was a piece of maybe quarter inch steel with a rock veneer on top to blend into the rock floor. What did we discover? 

We looked down the dark shaft and could feel a cool moist draft flowing from the shaft. On two sides of the shaft were metal ladder rungs embedded into the rock walls. The same material as the re-bar we found outside of the pillar. The rungs were very rusted and moist from the humid air. All of us smoked and we all carried the famous Zippo lighter. We all lit our lighters and tried to view farther down the shaft. We could only see about 6 or 8 feet farther and could not see much. All we could see was the rungs of the metal ladder going down the two walls. We can’t stop now. Our curiosity was overriding our common sense. We have to go get some flashlights and gloves so we can enter that shaft of deceit. Who would have ever thought you would have to go to the top of a pillar to find a shaft that may lead to the tunnels and caverns below.  

We replaced the lid and rushed back to Merrel Barracks to get equipment. The barracks was about two miles away and it seemed like it took forever to get back to the barracks. We got our flashlights, extra batteries, and gloves. Wait a minute! We are going to an unknown place and may get lost if there is more than one tunnel. Angelo suggested a roll of communication wire. This is a light wire that comes on a 2000-foot spool and could be tied at the beginning of the shaft, and we could unwind the wire as we proceed down the shaft. Angelo went to his radio truck and picked up the wire. It is getting late. All soldiers must be in the barracks by 8 p.m. on Sunday nights and it is 5 o’clock already. We rush back to the pillar and raise the lid. What will we find down there? 

We start descending the shaft. George and Bob go first. Angelo and I follow about 8 feet after them. The rungs are much rusted. Hopefully none will give way under the weight of a body. We go down; it seems like forever before we reach the floor. Finally, we reach the bottom of the shaft. Looking up you can see the communication wire dangling down and the opening looked like maybe 150 feet up from the floor of the shaft. You could see that the sun is starting to set. This is exciting! We are standing in a circular room about 25 feet in diameter, with ceilings about 12 feet high. It is very dark. The dark walls absorb the beam from the flashlight, and you cannot see very far ahead. You can hear water dripping from the ceilings and the floors are wet and slippery. In the background, you see rats scrambling to get away. Some of them looked as big as beavers. I never saw rats that big! I hate rats! Is this such a good idea?  

First decision, there are three tunnels. Which one do we take? We decide on the middle one. The tunnel has a slight downward slope, and you can see that it is going down. We travel maybe 500 feet, and we encounter this large cavern. Unfortunately, the cavern is full of water. The lights from the flashlights reflect off of the water and you can see the tips of the tails of airplanes above the water and the rest of the plane submerged in the water. You can see the swastikas on the tails. We aren’t equipped to go any further, so we back track to the circular room. 

This time we take the tunnel on the left. It appears to be heading in the direction of Merrel Barracks. We are running out of time. It is 6:45 and we must be back in the barracks by 8:00. We start down this tunnel and maybe go 1000 feet. There are all kinds of Nazi or German markings on the walls. We encounter a room built off the tunnel with a steel door and padlock. It looks like some kind of cell. There is a small window with rusted bars on the window. Shining the flashlight through the window we see a cot and lying on the floor is a body dressed in a German soldier uniform. I guess they forgot that he was there. This is getting interesting. Time is running out though. George’s flashlight has died, and others are getting dim. We have to be back in the barracks by 8 p.m. and we are going to need more wire to continue, since we only have about 500 feet of wire left. We rush back to the shaft and climb the ladder, replace the lid and rush back to the barracks. We make it just in time.  

When can we get back to this adventure? For the next 5 and one-half days we have to play army and it is hard to get off post during the week. The plan is to go back Saturday afternoon after duty. Secrecy is a must, no one can hear about our find. 

Tuesday morning the four of us are called into the orderly room. The somber first sergeant informs us that all four of us have received orders to ship out this Friday. Angelo and I are to go to Darmstadt, George goes to Berlin, and Bob is to report to Bamberg. We ask the first sergeant what the deal was, and he said he didn’t know. All he said was that the orders came from 7th Army headquarters. We never got to go back to the Pillar of Deceit. It has been forty-two years. Are those pillars still there? Did anyone else ever discover that shaft in the pillar? Were those tunnels and caverns ever discovered? If you believe this story, I have a bridge for sale in Arizona. 

MY BLOOD CLOT

Pulmonary Saddle Embolism

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For about 2 months I have been having periodic aches in my left calf. It would come and go and had no specific time or length of ache. I just thought it may be part of aging and didn’t think about it much.

On the night of February 5,2023, I had to go to the bathroom and stood up and a shooting pain went up from the ball of my left heal up through my calf. I could hardly walk to the bathroom. After finishing I came back to bed and laid down. The pain was not bad when no weight was put on the foot. I went back to sleep and woke up the following morning. The pain was not that bad when weight was put on the heal. It felt very similar to the same pain I had when I was diagnosed with a Bakers Cyst back in 2012. I emailed my PCP relaying my symptoms, she responded suggesting I come in and get it checked out. Ironically there was an appointment available the same day at 4:50PM and I took it. After the examination she deduced that I had Plantar Fasciitis and Achilles tendonitis. An ultrasound was not taken. She set me up for PT and showed me how to do some home exercises.

I went home satisfied. On the night of February 6th and morning of February 7th I went to the bathroom twice with no problems. Then about 4am I went again and experienced this shooting pain from the ball of the left foot with serious pain in the calf. Again, I could hardly walk to the toilet. After going back to bed, the pain from the ball of the foot went away, but the pain in the calf was still there. I massaged the calf to try to lower the pain and about 4:30am I began having trouble breathing. I woke my wife and told her to call 911, thought I was having a heart attack. She freaked out but did call 911. The operator told her to open the front door. However, in her panic she turned the key the wrong way on the security door dead bolt and jammed the lock so she could not get the door unlocked. I knew about the problem for about 2 years but learned how to live with it. I will now see that I fix it for good. Because of that the paramedics had to come through the garage. The paramedics get here and check me out and determine that I can survive a trip to Swedish Medical instead of taking me to St. Anthony Hospital, which is the closest to our home. I have used Swedish before, so all my records are there. I am put in the ambulance through the garage. Put an I V in me and start giving me fluid and oxygen. The siren was used during the trip to Swedish. I would estimate it took 10 to 20 minutes to get to the ER.

I went into an ER waiting room immediately. First thing they do is have an ultrasound on my left calf area. The ultrasound shows DVT (deep vein thrombosis), in the leg from the knee down to the ankle. Next a CT scan was done in my lung area, and they found a large clot located between my lungs. This is called pulmonary saddle embolism. With that finding an I V Heparin drip was ordered to start reducing and preventing additional clotting.

After a period, a doctor came to discuss the situation. He explained that there were three choices that could be made. First choice is to attempt to use medication to clear the clot. He did not recommend this because of the size of the clot. Secondly, go in through the groin, up to the lung area and remove some of the clot and put me under anesthesia. The last option was for me to stay awake during the procedure. He said this option is the one they have had the best success. After discussing with my wife and 2 stepdaughters, I decided to stay awake during the procedure and gave the ok.

They wheeled me to the operating room. I am in the room before the room is prepared and I am just amazed how much equipment and items are used for a medical procedure. Towels, clothes, pillows, tubing and items I can’t even explain. Finally, they are ready to start the procedure. The doctor told me that they would use a local anesthesia to help endure the pain. The most painful part was when they cut the vein or artery on my right groin. They didn’t bother to tell me that they needed an incision on both sides of the groin. The incision on the left groin was just as painful as the right side. I am glad they used a local anesthesia. I don’t know how intense the pain would have been without it.

Anyway, the procedure has started and after a period I am starting to feel bad. I shout out, “how much longer?” The doctor says maybe 20 to 30 minutes. I groan. I am continuing to feel bad. I hear from someone in the room, “his blood pressure is dropping doctor”. I am really starting to feel bad, and I get to the point, I don’t know whether I can continue. I was at the point of giving up. I thought I was breathing my last breath. I don’t know what happened or what they did but I started to recover and feel better. The procedure lasted maybe 20 minutes and then I heard the doctor say we are finished Thomas. I was relieved.

Maybe 5 or 10 minutes later the doctor started talking to me saying the clot they removed was one of the biggest clots that they have dealt with, and I was a good patient compared to some of their previous patients. Apparently, some patients get to the point where they must be restrained because they want to get up before they are finished with the procedure. I asked the doctor, “I heard my blood pressure was dropping”. I asked him “how low did it go?” There was a pause, and he said, “you don’t want to know, and I am not going to tell you.” I never did find out how low it went. As the conversation continued the doctor said, “you know Thomas I think we made the right decision. I am afraid if you had gone under anesthesia, I am afraid we would have lost you.” I didn’t know what to say about that comment. Now I can say I was standing in front of deaths door and Dr. Death was holding the door open. I was given a second chance in life. As my wife says, “your room wasn’t ready yet. Now my job is to find out why I was given another period of life and find out what is expected of me with this second chance.

One of the assisting doctors takes over and apparently, they are having a difficult time stopping the bleeding from the right groin incision. I guess they can’t use sutures like normal and being loaded up with blood thinners they must use compression on the wound and wait until it starts to heal. The doctor put pressure on the wound for about 45 minutes before it stopped bleeding. After it stopped bleeding, they wheeled me to an ICU room. During the trip to the ICU room, I attempted to raise my head and the doctor yelled at me “don’t do that, you must remain flat on your back until the incisions heal.” It is still Feb. 7th when I go to the ICU room and stay there until the afternoon of Feb. 9th . They wanted to get me to a normal room sooner, but a room was not available until late Thursday afternoon the 9th. I do not remember much about the time in ICU. The worst part was having to lay flat on my back all the time. I could not lay on my side, and I am not accustomed to laying on my back while sleeping. This was pure misery, a time I will never forget. I understand the reason for that is to keep the strain from the incisions and allow them to heal and not break open and start bleeding. Another item I discovered during this stay was a condom catheter, it was like a condom with a tube that went to a bag below the bed and whenever nature called you let it go and the urine went into the bag via the tube at the end of the condom. Since I was receiving blood thinner through the I V, they drew blood every 2 hours to make sure I was not getting too much blood thinner. There is always a concern about internal bleeding.

Finally, they discharged me from the hospital on Friday afternoon February 10th. Ever notice they want to discharge as many as they can before the weekends. Anyway, in the following months I have follow up appointments, wear a heart monitor, and tested for sleep apnea. The last test was an echocardiogram. They wanted to make sure the blood clot did not leave any long term. Damage. All the tests showed there was no long-term damage.

In conclusion, it is near the end of July, and I feel pretty good for being over eighty and just dodged death. The only thing I have noticed is that my endurance is shorter now and I tend to get tired sooner. The moral of the story is that if you ever wake up in the middle of the night with a painful cramp in your calf, do not massage the calf to attempt to relieve the pain. The speculation is, when I massaged my cramp a large portion of the clot broke loose and migrated between my lungs and with the constriction and the blood flow slowing down the clot just became larger. The doctors said I was very fortunate to survive a clot of this size. Now I must figure out why I was given another chance of survival.